Confession #17: Why I Blog

I know when looking through the myriad blogs out there in the blogosphere, "Why do they do it?" Some people have loads of followers and awesome posts answering life's questions: food, crafts, motherhood. So why, with my zero followers and self-plugging do I blog?

Because I want to. This is my form of cheap therapy. If I can think, feel like other people read this stuff then maybe, just maybe someone out there will get me. Someone will understand and say, "I feel, think, act the same way!" In essence I'm looking for others like me. I'm hoping I'm not the only loon that thinks the way I do, that does the things I do. That in some small way I will be found guiltless before the Grand Blogger and Reader because, really, they think and act similarly and judging me would be like judging themselves.

I know I'm dramatic, but hey! That's just me I guess.

Confession #16: Running On Empty

At the beginning of the year, I went for a jog every single morning (except Sunday...girl's gotta rest sometime!) I had a training schedule and everything because after a near 20 year hiatus, I was going to complete a 5K! That's right! Weighing in at a whopping 260 pounds, come heck or high water, I was determined to do this 5K by the middle of March.

And for a little over 2 months I was out there plugging along early in the morning with my trusty dog Lucie. But then...then I started losing interest in it all. I was no longer feeling fulfilled as I once was when I first started out. I searched inwardly for the answer, hoping and praying it wasn't just because I was fat and lazy. And YEA! It wasn't because I was fat and lazy...it was because I was missing something. I can't believe it took me so long to realize but I was missing my morning snuggles.

That's right folks. I still snuggle my 4 1/2 year old in bed in the mornings...well, most mornings. Some mornings snuggling is "boring" (his word, not mine). I realized that my good mood was set by the warm fuzzies a young snuggle can bring.

I decided that the snuggles were more important to me right now than jogging in the morning with the dog. But just in case you thought I wimped out on that 5k...

TA-DA! I went through with it and made it the finish line. I can't tell you my time because I wasn't keeping track. This run was all for me!